First Year Done

I remember the day my family left me in my dorm room and I knew the independence I had to carry for these next 9 months. I knew no one at my university, let alone anything about the real world. Well, this is to my first year of college and what I have learned since that first moment when I knew I was independent.

Friends

They always tell you “your friends in high school can never compare to your friends in college”, and well, let me tell you first hand that is true. Don’t get me wrong, I still have my high school friends who I love so much, but my college friends, that is another story. I think college friends are even better because they also are going through exactly what I am going through. I could encounter a person once, and they had a huge impact on my life, because of their genuine soul and heart they had for me. I left college with someone of my lifelong friends, and right now I wanna thank them. Our first year together was not easy, we went through hell and back a few times, but you guys stuck by me all year, and some even just this last semester and I wanna thank you for that. We had nights of tears, laughter, anger, and even nights we never wanna forget no matter what happened then, and in our tough times, please remember these nights, because let us be honest, it is what got us through this first year. Thank you for spotting me a few bucks when my paycheck was a little low that week, I promise when were successful we will make up for these times, but for now we will struggle together. Along with that, thank you for showing me such unconditional love that I have never felt before. I wake up everyday and I know that I will never have to go without feeling loved, and let me tell you, that is a feeling I never knew until I got here and it is because of my amazing friends.

Finances

I never knew what broke was until I would get excited that my mom sent me cup of noodles every month because she knew that is what I was surviving on. Even with two jobs through this year, I still struggled. But I am so thankful for freshman year struggles, it made me so humble and grateful for the hard work my parents put in all these years to get me to where I am. There were many days I went without eating, but let me tell you those home cooked meals Auntie would make on Wednesday at bible study made up for those days. And another thing, you may go to the shops and want to live lavishly, but I promise not having the newest thing is okay. For one, we are in college, we are broke and everyone knows that, learn from me, you would rather have a meal than the newest fashion style. And another thing, when it comes to moving out, you will curse at yourself the whole time for thinking it was okay to buy all this crap in excitement. Save your money now, it will be worth it in the long run.

Health

Freshman 15 is a lie. That is a myth, I mean, it does happen, but it’s a myth. I remember before I left for college my mother telling me to not over do it at the cafe and wanting me to keep tabs on what I ate so I wouldn’t gain weight, but I actually lost weight. A few tips, cafe food is actually not the best at every campus, stick to the fresh things, fruits and salads, it taste way better then that pizza every night. Also, walk. It may get tiring some days and you may be running late some morning lectures, but I promise skipping the class shuttle and leaving your dorm a few minutes early will count in the long run. I went to the gym a total of three times in my freshman year of college and I swear it did not kill me that I was not there everyday. I mean do not get me wrong take care of your body, but don’t kill yourself doing it. There are plenty of healthy options on your campus, pick them, they usually taste better. And just stick to walking. I was lucky to attend a University by beautiful beaches surrounding me, but no matter where your college is, you can find physical activity inside or outside, utilize those sources.

Academics

School is so much harder than you think, high school did not prepare this for me. It’s hard when you want to have a social life, you need to work, along with studying enough for all your courses. But if you have amazing friends, like I did, they will have the priority of studying also. Some have different study techniques, which is fine, but try and take this time to spend with friends who might also be in the same course and make the best of this time as studying and hanging out with friends. Trust me, your parents do not want to see anything but a passing grade because they are paying too much for you to be messing around too much.

My first year could not have been any better. I meet some amazing people, learned how to deal with people who I just do not get along with, and lost some life long friends just because of the distance. But aside from that I learned a lot about myself and the world around me. DO NOT just go to college thinking it’s a party. Appreciate the education and venture out to the new cities around you, it will all be worth it.

Goodbyes

I hope that you all took my challenge of looking around at your friends and realizing which ones are there to uplift you and make you a better person and you made an effort to show your apprectiation with them.

I personally know I struggled with my own challenge, I had to step back and see who benefitted me most and brought me up. Sadly, a week later the decision is still up in the air for the other party but I know the decision I made, and I know that it was the right decision, and when it comes time to share my decision, I pray we made the same one.

This past week I reflected a lot on my life after high school. I know that I will be attending a four year, which has been my goal since I was 8-years old. My heart breaks though when I think about college. My dream college has always  been in Hawaii, that has always been my dream, to live for four years in a paradise. But now as I apply for colleges, and face the real life sadness of the goodbyes I will be saying less than 8 months.

I brought this up to my best friend. She has decided to attend a JC, and I have never been more proud of someone, she has made the choice to further her education and that just makes me so proud of her. But with this choice we will be forced to seperate in a year, and that breaks us both. We both had to realize that our goodbye is coming, that we will not wake up everyday knowing we will see each other in an hour, that we cannot just call each other up and meet in the next 7 minutes it takes to get to each others houses, that on Sunday’s we can not go up to our hang out spot and talk about all the people that have upset us in any way.

With that being said, I go back to my challenge last week, with knowing that college is around the corner, I had to choose who I wanted to conquer that journey with and it is not only my one best friend deciding to be local when she starts her college career, but also my other best friend that is applying to four years like me. I personally made mistakes this week that might affect my decision but I know that in a year when I move into my dorm they are the only girls I will want to call up to tell them about the new cute boys, the town I live in, how my roommates have their own weird habits, and knowing this makes goodbye so hard for me. Knowing that I will not share such an important event in my life with my two best friends kills me because whenever a big event (or even small) occurs in my life, they are the two I go to first, no matter what.

But I will not only be leaving my best friends but my family. I watched my sister go to college a few years back and that was the number one saddest thing to happen in my life thus far. I remember how sad and quiet my house was for the first time in 16 years, since I was the last one to be home. No longer were there over 10 teenagers in  my house all hanging out, no longer did my mom need to make abundance of food for our friends just randomly showing up for dinner, and I know as I leave the house everything will be different. This is my last year for home cooked meals every night by my mom, the last year for my step dad to nag me to close my bedroom door because my floor is too messy, or them telling me to turn off my light every time I leave my room. I know personally I will miss these things the most.

I want everyone, even those done with all of their schooling to embrace everything in their life everyday. As I grow closer to adulthood I see how easy it is for people to just be gone in a blink of an eye, or how your health fails you more often than not. Everyone needs to face the facts that real goodbyes are coming our way and we do not want to regret anything. Say how you truly feel to a person, because if they listen, then they are a true friend and you need to keep them around. Leave a situation if you are not happy, say those types of goodbyes, because if you keep getting hurt you will no longer be a happy, lively person, and  I personally think everyone should be like that.

Now since I did not update last week, I have lost an overall of 21.8 pounds since I have started my  weight loss journey. I look in the mirror every morning and see the progress, and my stomach shrinking.

I would like to thank everyone who has complimented me on my accomplishments, and noticing what I am doing in my life to be a better person, those compliments keep me going some days. And for those that read my blog and take something from it, thank you for supporting me.

I love all of you